Walking Through The Intensity

The intensity continues! I am tingling all over and finding it hard to stay in the body.

A lot of horizontal stuff, self-doubt, self-deprecation came up lately to be looked at and to be let go. Also a lot of doubt of what the heck I am doing here and what am I supposed to do other than sitting around. Where is more joy on this planet? Where to go? What to do? I seem not to receive a lot of concrete responses to those questions from my Higher Intelligence. Yet my prayer/request to my Higher Levels is always: "Show me what I want! Tell me what YOU want and I will do it! I Love You so much, I adore YOU! I AM YOU! Show me! Steer me, journey me, guide me! Make me an instrument! Use me in tangible ways!" So, I continue with my day and follow the Joy.

What would it be really joyful to do now?

It comes to me to be in other places, to travel. It seems I easily fall into a routine when I am home in Vienna. It seems a lot opens up for me when I am travelling. YET...I cannot and don't desire to travel for travel's sake! I wish my Spirit to guide my hand, my mind when I take an action! So, Canada, especially Niagara Falls keep coming up! I will check out that possibility as to where to go and when....Right now that is all what came up. The clean energy of the Niagara Falls is calling me. I will need to see, Know if I am being called there physically or energetically which I do not seem to get clearly oftentimes. What would be so much fun to do right now? Next? Spirit, USE ME! Use my mind to steer me, implant ideas into my head....HOW BEST CAN I ASSIST? HOW BEST CAN I SERVE? Doing what? Where? With whom? When? YOU tell me, Spirit, let me Know beyond the shadow of any doubt, let me Know what I Know! 

I am giving myself more and more to my Higher Levels, merging more and more with them. What a relief! What excitement! Bringing in more and more of my multi-dimensional Self, more and more Divinity to be embodied in this physical structure while evolving the it. While letting the whole world be what it wants to be, not being concerned or even distracted by the outside world, by appearances of the small story, of the old dying world, while keeping FAITH that the NEW is HERE, we just need to own it, to claim it, to take a stand for it. 

Asking my Spirit to write me out from all small stories I have been written into, like with G! Taking all the distortional energies back and giving the others their projections, assumptions back. It feels liberating and expanding. 

Knowing that there is SO MUCH MORE possible, that there is SO MUCH more for me personally and also for the collective. There is so much more Light-beingness, space and expansion, so much more Joy and fulfillment possible....yet we are not there yet...Yet being at peace with it and not judging myself or others for not being there yet. That is a challenge. It is a challenge to judge the state, the stage I am in and the humanity and the planet is in....and be at peace with it without judging it. It is the mind that is judging it...The trick might be not to be identified with the so called lower levels of consciousness, letting go of the idea that there is somewhere to go, something to reach....We are our Higher Levels, we are our Higher Self, and Heaven on Earth is already there. We don't need to get there, we just need to claim it, to transfer our consciousness in the lower realms fully to the higher realms, from one paradigm to the other. It is happening within us...so it is happening around us...As always we are the doers.....

Physical movement, like Yoga seem to bring in fluidity into my physical body as well as into my system, I love it. 

As always, all is well! Everything and everybody is exactly as they are meant to be.