Now we are moving faster than ever, expanding into our own Divinity and as the veils are getting thinner and thinner that separate us from us, from each other, from our true families beyond the veil. This is ecstatic and at the same time creates all kinds of emotional, mental, psychological reactions in our collective being. The mind reacts with fear, the familiarity is collapsing and there is New territory changing and shifting every moment. The mind cannot hold on to anything. We change so rapidly that we don't know who we are becoming, who our loved ones are becoming, let alone what is happening to our close relationships which creates emotional stress. Our future in many ways is less and less predictable and there is no way to hold on to anything. All in all it is a very  colorful time. 

Yesterday I received a huge "download" from my higher levels. It has always been my constant prayer to embody more and more of me, more and more of my Divinity with each breath and each step. Yet this was different. It was very powerful, I felt like my life plan has been re-adjusted, recalibrated, renewed. I have received a new "job", a new "mission" and "responsibility" to put it into human terms. Or in mystical terms I received a new mantle, new "powers" and new abilities. I committed to be part of and serve the New Earth which seems to be coming very rapidly Now. I was told not to make the appearances real or be concerned of any of them, but stay with what I receive and experience in the inner realms since they are a lot more real than the outer appearances. Now that seems to be crucial. All the time I have been living and juggling two so very different realities: the world of appearances, the outside world and my inner reality. I treated them mostly as separate since one would not necessarily translate into the other in manifestation, the "gap" was just too big. I lived two different lives, as two different beings, one 3D and one 5D in the dimensional model. Even though I lived the truths of 5D in 3D there seemed to be no way to merge both worlds fully. This created frustration, alienation of the outer world and confusion in my psyche at times. Yet I moved through all of that as elegantly and gracefully as I was capable to.

What is happening Now is NEW! I am being called to make my inner reality real and not the outer reality. The outer reality is the terrain of my mind, it is the where the mind gets involved, where it is active. It is the physical realm of finances, daily chores, planning, people around me...My inner reality is run by my Spirit and it is basically about the Divine, about my non-physical family, friends, angels, fairies, and ETs. I made both of them real in a way that I dealt with the physical world when necessary and constantly asked about my next steps. Yet as real as both worlds have been to me it didn't seem possible for the 5D to be manifested in a tangible reality in the physical. Now I am being called to lean more towards the inner reality, to make it more real, to hold on to it and anticipate it to manifest in my outer reality. This is quite frightening to my mind that fears I would lose it, I would not be able to live in "real life" and lose my connection to the outer world which it still considers itself to be a part of. This is a serious concern so to speak. Right now I have no answer to that. The mind is afraid to make a "dream" real that would never come true. After so much waiting for the shift of collective reality to take place and after going through so many opportunities unused by humanity I cannot blame my mind. What if it never happens in our life time and we lose this only "real", manifest reality we have for having concerns. Shouldn't we rather make ourselves home there? In a dying world? No! Hell no! Even the mind knows by now that the outer world is collapsing left and right and there is no way to make ourselves home there. Yet then again....what we are left with is TRUST...Trusting that what we experience in our inner reality is REAL and it will manifest as our reality, in our embodiment and consciousness rather than being a dream time or inner experience. Trusting in a way that we make it more real than the outer appearances, what and how the world presents itself right now. Trusting that we are being guided, we are being watched over, that we actually Know what we are doing being here on this planet right now. 

I Know that I have not come to this planet to live a human life. I have been there, done that. I Know that my Spirit is here to bring in the New. That is actually the proof that the inner will manifest as outer, isn't it? I wouldn't be here if the New would not be underway in my lifetime.  I Know at a soul level, and actually very well at a mind level that I have no interest whatsoever in being part in the current collective reality on this planet. I have spent my life feeling in a cage, all around illusions with no where to go but the Mother Nature, the woods, the trees, the flowers, the animals and the fairies. Nothing or nobody else seemed worth to make real in any way. Now I am being asked to make my inner experience of the NEW Job real, to hold on to it, to focus upon it and to anticipate it to show up in my reality! This is new, this is a challenge for my mind. As always I am asking for guidance, I am asking for assistance. In my heart I feel fear to fail, to not be able to fulfill my "mission". At the same time I know I cannot fail. Fail or pass is an appearance of this Earth reality, there is no failing in the higher realms which we are promised will be Real on this planet. My mental, emotional and physical bodies, all that makes up my humanness feel a little overwhelmed with this new job, with the powers I received and with embodying them. It feels so huge! They are all so outside of the pictures of reality of any human experience as outside reality, at least for me. Again, "TRUST", whisper angels! TRUST! Know! Listen with your Heart! Know it is Truth! While my humanness feels like it is going to get crushed under the weight of this New Job, not knowing how to hold so much Divinity in this humanness, the angels are holding me. "You will Know" they whisper. I am asking for ever expanding capacities for my mental, emotional and physical bodies to be able to hold and embody the Divinity, the Power, the abilities I AM. All that I came here to embody, to BE....To carry the scepter, the Healing, the Transformation, to be a Leader of Being. I am requesting assistance, I don't know how to do and be it! There is no path to walk on, it is SO NEW! The path seems to emerge with every step into the Unknown, into the Void where there is nothing yet to see. Yet I will never fall and I can never fail! I am praying for my humanness to catch up with Ease and Grace so I can be ALL I THAT I AM the Divine wants me to BE Here and Now and All-ways. Blessed Be! So it IS!